Don’t bring me down
Don’t bring me down with you
to stare into the hole of regret,
where the light switch is cemented
and still smoldering from the heat of my failures.
I am alone in the dark
searching for you
to bring me some light
and a blanket for my bed of stone.
Don’t step on my heart
that beats only for you,
that swings and sways
to the rhythm of your golden spirit.
Please don’t coax the worst words
to come flying from the blackest caves
of my mind,
they only live to bring destruction.
Remember, in their stead, when you were hungry
and I was your world.
I brought you food and shelter
with every piece of my soul singing;
“I love you my Angelitas”
Love is patient and kind;
it has no room for elbows
of spite and vengeance
or dull knives that woodpeckers hold
When you were naked and afraid
I clothed you with my warm hands,
bathed you in oil
and spoke words of comfort and peace
into your tiny ears.
I fed you truth and made you strong again,
I held you when you came to me in tears
with a broken body and mind.
Now I am the one who comes crying to you,
I am the one who has perpetuated a pain
in your soul spawned by the seeds of evil men.
I feel nothing but shame and loneliness; wearing the guilt
like a guilty man should
as he looks at his hands covered in blood
from the only true heart he has ever known.
I would never ask forgiveness for that which is unforgivable,
I only ask for kindness in my time of need.